OMG...I was about to lay down before I posted, but I am so glad that I lifted my laptop!!
I just had the best convo with a Soror of mine who confirmed all of my feelings. We were talking about the different kind of relationships that we develop. The Horizontal type and the Vertical type. The Horizontal type of relationships are so lacking depth and I hate to say, I feel like for my spirit that I have had more than I should have. For another woman, I might have too few for another woman too many...but for me...its too many.
It always reminds me of Steve Urkel talking about the Horizontal Polka-gross, I know.
I miss the type of relationship where a guy is totally trying to get to know me, really courting me and exploring who I am. Its been a long time since I have felt that way and I refuse to be involved in another relationship that lacks a MAJOR Vertical Experience.
Tate's ass had the nerve not to call me. I missed knowing or feeling that somebody cared, but I cannot say that I really missed him. I do not feel a strong connection to him, I just didnt want to be alone. And Tate was a nice transition from Biggums. Biggums was a guy who I had been crushing on for a long time, who pretended like he was into me, and our relationship went from Super Vertical for months to Horizontal. And thats when I "lost" him. But after just a few months I dont miss him a bit and I swear I loved him. One of the reasons that I decided to take The Man Break was because I was having issues really knowing what I wanted as a person myself. I was feeling "relationship confused"...and to me...that indicated that I needed to take a break and put on THE BRAKES!!
Soo...Day 3. It was Okay, I mentioned Ace to my Mom's...she was like your holding out for him?...He is the only thing relationship wise that I am SURE about. Yes, I am holding out for him and every man that I encounter is worth passing up to have Ace. I just wish that he would still feel the same old way about me.
Until then...Sassy and Celibate!
xoxo,
Sharelle
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