|Day One|

|Day One|

So here I am on Thursday, May 24th.

I have been in and out of relationships, mini-relationships, half relationships and grey area relationships.  I am 34 years old and I have not been in what I would consider a respectable relationship since I was 30.  I have partied a lot, I have totally enjoyed myself.  But I need the focus that being in a relationship removes from me.

I was just talking to my Sands and I was telling her that for me being in all of these "situations" all feel like one big bad drink.

The Relationship Cocktail

They are nice and fizzy in the beginning...taste better with every sip.
then they kinda feel out of control....

THEN...the room is spinning your "sick"...and then your doing stuff that you would never do in your right mind!!

And when you sober up...you realize that you were a MESS!!!!
and that there was tissue stuck to your shoe...everybody was laughing and new that you were a fool.

You can tell that I have been drunk before and being in lightweight relationships are equally as non-committal.  And the more you do it, the more that you feel the need to take another drink, another man, another "piece of relationship."

I am going to post as often as possible and discuss my difficulties of keeping myself to myself and The Man Break.

This is not a joke, its me, Sharelle D. Lowery, my open diary-on a Man Break, for myself!